My feeling -Moving to Penang

I was surprised when i got the offered from Citi Group, Penang. Cos i never thought that i might working at penang in 1 day. I was struggle to make the decision that joining citi group. 2moro i'll going to Penang.

Before leaving i do have a lot of feeling like happy and sad. Happy cos i can stay with my best friez, Iling and meet my friezs especially my ex roomate at penang. SAD cos i have to leave KL, my family members and him.

This is a good opportunity for me to have a try at Citi Group cos they do offer me wat i really interested and the benefits are not bad too. I wish to try something like trading and i got this chance now. This caused me make the decision to go to penang. I had made a very selfish decision that leave him at KL and im going to penang. I am very sad with this decision but i got no choice. Luckily he is understanding me very well and support for it even he is "terpaksa". It make me very touching cos he is supporting me to do watever i wan.

I have to start a long distance relationship with him. This is my own decision even though he is not really agree for it. Im feel sorry to him cos he have to support in the condition tat not really agree. I'll maintain this relationship by work more hard to this relationship. Cos i noe tat it is not easy to maintain a long distance relationship. I'll let it be....

Poor him cos have a gf like me, who always create problem to him. Hahaha....

I wish that everything can be smooth and i can settle down at Penang ASAP.

To Him-Fred

Choosing him as my bf, i think he might get suffer. Cos im always asking him a lot of funny and weird of questions like y he wanna do this .....and tat.... He said he have to stand by in case i'll asking a lot of questions. Am i a problem gal? Am i a notti gal? Hahaha...answer is yes....

I wanna said sorry to him, cos of my family i think he might get hurt sometimes. Cos of wat my family members did said about him. Please forgive whatever they did said, cos they are too love me and they were not meant to hurt him. They are always concerned about me cos they scare that i might get hurt or pain. I wish that he can understand my situation as well.

Finally i had made my own decision to working at Penang. Is it a tough decision cos i have to work at a city that far away from him. This is wat he not really agree for. But after i told him my mind, he has to agree at last. Thank you very much for your support cos it is meant for me. It can be the power for me to build up my career.

I wanna let him know that my heart is always wit him no matter where i am. That is true tat i Love him. He is not lonely even i am not with him all the time. I noe he dislike to has a long distance relationship but now our relationship has turn to that. Dear, sorry for my selfish. I noe it will caused u feel like unsecure, but i still wanna to have a try for it. U noe, it just like gambling, and i might be the winner or loser for this game. But I want to become a winner and not loser that wat i did tol myself.

I'm praying hard to the God, asking him to blessing my relationship and everything.

我的心情

最近的心情都不是很好. 因为最近所承受的压力蛮大. 家人的不谅解以及他那不轻易敞开心胸无形中使我感到难过. 家人的不谅解我可理解, 因为他们都是出自对我的保护. 这一刻, 我才发现原来我是受保护的"动物".

我发现, 对他的认识不是很足够, 我相信他对我的认识也一样. 原来他跟其他的天秤座的人一样, 那就是不容易对别人打开他的心胸. 要走进他的心门可真难,办我没有自信会做得到. 我一直都很想知道他为什么到现在还是单身, 不过他却透露还不是时候告诉我. 什么时才是对的时机?我能够等到那个时候吗? 朋友问过我许多有关他的问题如:how come stil single? izzit tat he got any "bad" habit tat u don know??i'll c tat now he got a good carrier o not, got house ady, got car ady??if he got all of these, then i can say tat mayb he's too bz wit his courrier, till he got no time for him to find a partner.. o mayb he's too shy till only concentrate at his work... but if he don hv all of these, then wat hv tis guy done in past few yrs??

以上的种种都是我的好友以及家人曾问过我的问题. 它们让我开始觉得自己很天真. 他也时常说我的想法太天真. 我一直以为感觉对了就可以开始一段感情,对他的一切都一知半解. 渐渐地发现, 这想法太天真了.我万万都没有想到它竟然会把我的家人牵扯进来, 而并不是单纯的只有我们. 我开始害怕了, 因为对与我们的关系, 我缺乏安全感.

我对自己承诺给彼此半年的时间,如果半年后我还是没想到办法走进他的世界, 那时候我会心甘情愿地放手.

我想告诉他的一些话

我并不想对你有任何的隐瞒, 那就是我的家人不是很看好我们的关系. 因为对他们而言, 你是一个陌生人. 他们对你并不了解, 也不曾跟你接触过. 我很想问你, 这么的一个挑战你愿意去接受吗? 虽然我们的关系还没到那种阶段, 不过我想让你有一个心理准备, 将来会面对的问题. 这一刻, 你还有反悔的机会, 你会那么做吗?

我希望我们彼此都能够坦白一点, 不要有所隐瞒. 可否请你老实地告诉我你的忧虑呢? 每一次你都会叫我放轻松点, 一切顺起自然. 你总会说我想太多了, 要我不要太过忧虑. 难道你真的都没有为那写时而担忧吗? 你从来都不曾跟我说过你的担忧. 我想告诉你, 我希望我们的能够分享彼此的一切, 你能够做到吗? 我希望拥有一段真诚的感情.......

曾经有人问过我, 我择偶的条件是什么? 我告诉他说:"我希望我能够找一个能够扮演三种角色的男生. 他得扮演哥哥, 男朋友以及爸爸的角色". 哈哈...我知道我很自私, 因为我你得扮演这么多的角色. 我并没有哥哥, 所以从来都没享受过被哥哥疼爱的那种感觉. 因为太久没谈恋爱了, 所以我很渴望被爱的感觉. 老爸的角色是在我需要开导的时侯才要扮演的.

妈妈的关心

　一直以来, 我知道妈妈, 她很关心我们的一切. 最近我告诉老妈我有了想谈恋爱的对象, 刚开始时她告诉我只要我喜欢就好. 后来我告诉她"他"真实的年龄后, 老妈有点惊愕, 因为我们的年龄相差十四岁.

　几天后老妈她打电话给我, 因为她很担心我跟"他". 原因是年龄上的差距, 不了解"他"的家庭背景以及经济能力, 她怕我被骗了. 老实说我能够体谅老妈的忧虑, 她是以母亲的立场来看待我跟"他"的关系. 她很担心我跟"他" 的差距会因为年龄而产生很多问题, 特别是在担心将来老了以后"他"能不能照顾我. 她很害怕我会被伤害, 所以劝告要好好的观察"他"，不要超之过急地发展我们的关系．毕竟我跟他认识的时间并不是很长．她认为一段感情必须要细水长流，才.能够长久；如过来得快，也去得很快．一切都顺其自然． 她不是很鼓励我们的这段感情

　
　老实说我自己也不是很确保我喜欢他的哪一点，缘分真的是很奇妙的．跟他在一起很舒服，因为他无时无刻都能够逗我笑；有时候还常戏弄我．他会在我难过及疲惫的时候给予安慰．在某种程度上，我们的想法以及思想上很相似．我真的不想错过他，也很想知道我们之间会擦出什么火花．他真的会是我的另外一半吗？哈哈．．．．．．请看续集吧！！